GOOD DAY TO YOU

Was feeling pretty sian the whole of this week. 

I guess it’s cause of this uncomfortable feeling of being cooped up in the sloth enclosure. I cant even go out and train. Haha Yeah just this feeling of being trapped and boringnesssssss.

Somehow i felt this way today as well, even though there was soccer in the morning.

It was suppose to be for my brother since it was his first book out in 3 weeks. But he didnt show up. Today’s soccer by normal standards would have been deemed as fun by edmund. Pretty good people came; caleb, wesley and yam. We even had a good team to play against, two ex acjc soccer captains.

yet all this felt to like lift this siannesssss of me.

Spend some good time of learning and sharing with my awesome cell group as well. But still that couldnt shake the feeling off.

It was only until dinner, where i got to talk to edward and when i mean talk i mean really talk. About all the army stuff, sharing with each other our experiences in bmt and when we were both platoon ic.

haha played saboteur with the whole family as well and ended of the night with a new alcoholic drink hmm…. some japanese plum alcohol drink. taste good when diluted.

Yeah but back to my brother. Its only recently in the last two years when we got closer. AND YES NOW FINALLY, its like i found my brother again. We can talk and laugh like normal friends.

Im super happy for him when he shared with me all the experiences he had gone through. He loves bmt by the way haha and he has seen some pretty awesome stuff as well even though its only the first 3 weeks. Some guy almost died while running in the stadium, the medics couldnt revive him soooo the super puma helicopter got called in!!! IT LANDED ON THE FIELD. wow thats like once in a century you get to see this kind of thing.

Im even happier that he’s doing well in army as well. How he leads the platoon when he was ic. How people follow him, how he went about doing things as an ic. His decision making, how the commanders have a good impression of him. Haha im happy cause i see myself in him? like most of the stuff he had done, was what i did as a platoon ic as well.I wasnt even there to guide him. hahaha. Today we learnt in the pcm conference about mentoring. How mentoring is about living and experiencing life with someone and helping the person grow. Im not saying i mentored edward, maybe unknowingly i did as well. ok let me explain

The thing is we had the pretty much same upbringing as well. Same ccas, same schools, same environment. I really thank God for my parents. I dont think they planned it for us to turn out this way. But for everything they didnt do and did. I thank God for it. I love the way i am now. I believe God is watching and moulding edward to. Even though we both have our different gifts and talents. But in terms of eq wise i think we both gained a good sense of it somehow. We have roughly the same mentors? Both of us grew up together and things rubbed off each other such that we became the people we are today. Most importantly i know God is playing a huge part in all of this. 

Even though during secondary school, i felt we werent that close in some sense. But i know deep down inside somewhere, no matter what we would have each other’s backs. That kind of connection. Something that i cant really explain, im quite sure hg and bh can identify with me. HOPEFULLY.

I still remember what i told him two days before he went off, just be yourself and trust God. You will do fine. Just that confidence in my brother. For everything we went through together, seeing him grow as well.

haha but what makes me most happy is that, he still believes in God. he brought the bible into camp and he says grace. Christian core values are still embed in him somewhere. Haha i thank fairfield for that. 

And also that at this rate im pretty sure he is going to make into ocs. Something that i couldnt get but he can.

Ok good night guys.

I hope you had a good day. If not get a nice drink.